Gender Fluid

Sex, Gender, Sexuality + Beyond: An Introduction

Questioning, Male-To-Female, Female-To-Male, Gender Fluid, In Transition, Non-Conforming, Family, Community + Allies, SocialKC Clements

The past few years have seen an exponential rise in the visibility of transgender people, particularly in popular media. Many such representations have done the work of showing transgender people in a positive (or at least neutral) light, taking down some of the stereotypes about us that have prevailed for decades.

How I Explore Androgyny In My Self-Presentation

Questioning, Gender Fluid, Stories, In Transition, Women's Style, Men's Style, Non-ConformingAri Utria

Androgyny is defined as the combination of both masculine and feminine characteristics—an expression of gender ambiguity.

It’s worth noting that androgyny is by no means a modern concept, though if you look at the current trends among many celebrities, you will see that the notion of blurring the gender lines when dressing oneself has become increasingly popular.

Don’t Dismiss Me For Being Genderqueer

Identity, Gender Fluid, Non-ConformingMicah
Photo Credit:  Chloe Aftel, Genderqueer  series

Photo Credit: Chloe Aftel, Genderqueer series

“Genderqueer is a trend.”

“Genderqueer people are just playing dress up.”

These myths are commonplace, perpetuated by misinformation in mainstream media, whispers in support groups, rants in online forums and jerks in the comments. They are the norm of what genderqueer represents in people’s minds. I’ve read one too many articles—especially by transgender people—claiming that those who are genderqueer do not experience the same troubles as trans men and trans women.

So I want to set the record straight.

Some genderqueer people are playing dress up. Some genderqueer people are young, young enough to be swayed by their peers, by what they think is cool. And right now, genderqueer is kind of cool. Some genderqueer people claim this label purely as a means to rebel against gender roles, gender stereotypes, gender expectations. Some genderqueer people do not experience discrimination, or rejection or violence.

But not all.

In fact, I’d argue that most genderqueer people do not fall into this more vocal, more visible group. The majority of genderqueer people are not doing it because it’s cool. They are not teenagers. They are not playing dress up. They are not a trend. They are simply genderqueer because they feel that the two options offered—male and female—are not enough for them to truly live.

They are simply trying to figure out how to be themselves in a world that does not acknowledge anything outside of these two rigid categories.

They experience social dysphoria from hearing a heavily gendered name, or a pronoun that essentially announces their genitals to everyone within earshot. They battle pasts fraught with fighting against what was expected of them, without words to proclaim otherwise.

They experience physical dysphoria about their body parts. They undergo expensive medical treatments to align the image in the mirror with the one in their minds. They jump through legal hoops to correct what they feel is a marker that doesn’t represent them. Even if the result still doesn’t reflect who they are, it’s better than doing nothing.

Doctors tell them they aren’t trans enough to transition. Family tells them they aren’t trans enough to call them by a different pronoun. Trans brothers and sisters tell them they aren’t trans enough to warrant support, services, acknowledgement, a community of solidarity within the transgender umbrella.

Genderqueer people are transgender. Genderqueer people experience discrimination, rejection, violence. Genderqueer people are not playing dress up.

Yet, even the slice of young folk who are crossing gender lines solely in the way they dress, in their haircuts and makeup and accessories, are an integral part of the genderqueer community. For the first time in modern history, people feel a sense of freedom; we’ve created a space safe enough where they can explore gender. By being visible in their exploration and vocal in their pushing, they expand that freedom to others. This type of scrutiny over gender axioms is the sort of shakedown society needs.

All of us are helping tear down notions of what gender looks like, what gender should be, what gender really is. Some genderqueer people may just be having a good time, being the cool kids for once; or, they may not yet fully understand their gender identity — trans or not — and the freedom to explore gender outwardly is a critical step towards that discovery.

Our communities have developed in such a way that genderqueer exists simultaneously as an expression and as an identity, except only one of these representations evokes a dictionary lookup in people’s minds. Once genderqueer is pigeon-holed as simply outward appearance, genderqueer the identity is being dismissed for everyone.

Both concepts are important, yet present intersecting challenges based on the singular needs of each: free expression, support for transition, the validity of self-identity. The difficulty in trying to nail down a specific vocabulary lies in that most of these terms have different meanings depending on who you ask, partly because they are so new, partly because we only have a handful of words to describe infinitely individualized notions of gender. It may take a few years before these words coalesce into a shared definition, before genderqueer refers to a gender identity — a deep-rooted sense of self, on par with man or woman — rather than dismissed as a teenage trend.

In the meantime, I’m careful not to refute someone’s experience based on what they look like on the outside. I’m careful to grant them this freedom to explore and figure things out about themselves, a freedom most us regretfully never received as youth, and many others never will.

My hope in educating trans folk—and their families, their friends, their allies, their doctors, their teachers and dog walkers and hair stylists — about genderqueer identities is to expand the framework with which everyone thinks about Gender.

NOTE: This article was originally published by The Huffington Post on February 2, 2016. Follow Micah’s personal blog posts at

Hello, My Name Is Natalie. I Am Transgender And I Am Proud

Questioning, Gender Fluid, Coming Out, Stories, Female-To-Male, Fitness + Diet, Mind + Spirit, Medicine, Confirmation Procedures, In Transition, Men's Style, For Kids + Teenagers, Work + School, Community + Allies, Social, Personal Branding, Continuing Education, Job Boards, Know Your Rights, Suicide Prevention, Intervention Support, Allies + Volunteering, CommunityNatalie Egan

As many of you know, and as many of you do not know, I don’t go by Nathan anymore. My full name is Natalie Jane Egan and today is kind of a big day.

Besides coming out “online” as Natalie and now being openly transgender on the Internet, I am also announcing my new company: (more on the biz in a bit).

I realize many of you know me for different reasons. Some of you are my brothers and sisters; others are friends, professional colleagues, or acquaintances at some level and for some reason. If you’re getting this message, chances are we somehow know each other, or know friends in common, and I want to thank you in advance for your support. And, if I don’t know you at all, I hope my message helps you or someone you know find their true identity.

So yeah, I am transgender. Oddly enough, I really didn’t even know this until pretty recently. But before you jump to any conclusions, let me answer some commonly asked questions, and address some reactions I anticipate:

What does being transgender mean? To me, being transgender is a matter of my identity. Despite the fact that I was biologically born a boy named Nathan, my gender identity, the way I want to express myself, is female. This has been a profoundly personal realization for me and shouldn’t matter to anyone. I want to live my life as me—not as the person society wants me to be. Don’t we all deserve that right? I am not hurting anyone. If anything, I am setting people free. If you have a problem with me being “me,” you should really think about why that is the case.

“But Nathan was so manly!” Well... sort-of. You’re right that my outward appearance was “manly.” You may remember me as a rather large, hairy, OCD / hyper-controlling alpha-male that at times could be quite uncouth. But if you really knew me, you knew that inside I was a very nurturing, sensitive, open, and colorful person that loves shopping and art and flowers and doing “feminine” things like going to the spa. I also always wished I was pretty and that I could be a mom. If you are confused, imagine how I felt! Until recently, I never even knew I had a choice to express my true self, nor did I realize anyone else felt similarly to me… I’m grateful that I do now, so I am going to live the rest of my life like it is the only one I have got!

So, how do I identify? To be clear, I identify completely as a woman. Genetically, I was not born as a woman and yet I have the right to identify as one. Please use the pronouns “she and her” with me. I also don’t mind words like babe, girl, girlfriend, sister, and woman as long as you have a little class in your delivery.

What bathroom am I using? When I look like I do in the middle picture above (which, for now, is still about 80% of the time), I simply try and avoid using public bathrooms. It really sucks. But the good news is that I am making great progress with my transition, and eventually I will look much more like the Natalie on the right! Hopefully, by the time that happens (about 12-18 months), this whole bathroom debate will be over and no one else, no matter how they identify or what they look like, will have to suffer from not peeing.

How could I not know I was transgender? The truth is I always knew I was “different.” But I didn’t yet have the vocabulary to pinpoint why exactly. I didn’t know why I wanted to be pretty or why I was drawn to the color pink when I was younger. I just did. And no one readily used the word “transgender” when I was growing up—and don’t forget, there was no internet. So I felt totally alone, which left me feeling alienated and unsure of what was “wrong” with me. It was only about 9 months ago that I finally accepted that I was transgender and not just a “crossdresser” (although that took a very long time for me to accept, too).

Do I think I was born in the wrong body? No! But I definitely went through a phase where I thought that was the case. I now truly believe that I was born in the right body and all of this was meant to happen. I was meant to meet Nancy and make our kids. I was meant to start and you were meant to read this. Together we will change the world.

What about my kids? Van, Brook, and Teddy are all fine! Seriously. If they were older, it would be harder for them to process for sure. This a transition for them too. But they are all at a good age for acceptance, and as a family we love each other totally unconditionally. So while all of this isn’t easy, what my kids “get” is a happier more loving parent who is more present and connected than ever before. That is all that matters.

What about Nancy? This has been really hard for everyone, especially Nancy. And through it all, she has been unbelievably supportive of me and the kids and I love her so much for it. We are deeply committed to helping one another live happy and healthy lives, but again, that doesn’t make this easy. The bottom line is that we have a foundation of mutual respect, love and support. Every day, we look forward to helping each other be the best versions of ourselves, and to being great co-moms for our kids.

What happened with PeopleLinx? As many of you know, PeopleLinx is the software company I started in my basement in 2008. As CEO for six years, we put more than $8M to work in the US economy, and created 35+ full-time jobs in Philadelphia. In mid-2015, I voluntarily resigned for personal reasons (which may be clearer to you now - haha), and today the team is being led by my good friend and our former Chief Operating Officer, Kevin O’Nell. So to answer the question, PeopleLinx is doing great and I am still an active member of the Board of Directors.

Where am I in my transition and how far will I go? Let me start with a friendly reminder that this is not really an appropriate question to ask a trans person, especially if you don’t know them well. Everyone expresses their gender identity differently, and is a matter so personal it just isn’t other people’s business. That said, I don’t mind sharing. I have started hormones, which is amazing, and is connecting me with my body and humanity and the earth in ways I never knew possible (BTW: I love to talk about the hormones part, so always happy to chat about that one). I am also currently doing hair removal procedures, which are super painful but I love the way they make me feel afterwards. Other than that, I am taking all of this very slowly and my only basic expectation is to feel a sense of progress towards being my real self.

Am I happy? Healthy? OMG yes! In fact, I am both the happiest and the healthiest I’ve ever been. I have lost 40+ lbs in the last nine months, simply by becoming more mindful of what I put in my body (regular exercise helped too). I also quit smoking cigarettes completely (I was smoking a full-pack-per-day!), and cut my drinking and any other unhealthy activities by at least 80%. I am also no longer dealing with depression, or the suicidal thoughts that plagued me over the last year. Those dark days were especially hard as I lived in fear of being outed or blackmailed and ultimately rejected by society because someone “knew” I like to do things that women do (which is totally ridiculous now in retrospect). Today, I have a ton of energy, am super focused, and I know I am making a real difference in the world. I also know that I am a great parent for these kids. What else could I ask for? Well sure, there are a lot of other things I want, but you get my point.

So what is my new business? is an information hub for both consumer and institutional audiences related to a broad range of transgender issues. I started because I myself really struggled to find good, up-to-date information about being transgender. It was even harder for my friends and family, all of whom immediately Googled the word “transgender” when I first said it, and still felt in the dark about the nuances of what I was going through. Furthermore, I found corporations have no tools, language, or metrics to handle the growing number of both employees and customers that identify as transgender. That fact is that everyone deserves access to current, high quality information about trans issues and that is what we are doing. Our vision is to change the way the world thinks about identity and being who you want to be.

*Please note, I don’t claim to be an expert on being transgender or plan on being the authoritative voice of transgender people. That’s an impossible feat, as there’s no such thing as a homogenous “transgender community.” I am, however, an expert in building digital platforms and connecting communities so they can share their experiences and self-identify with what matters to them.

So what else? What can you expect? To be honest, I don’t know really know. I am learning more and more about myself and my transition everyday and it is super exciting. Please know that you will probably keep seeing subtle changes in me and I will try and keep you in the loop on important matters. Most importantly, know that I am working really hard to support my family as best I can.

How can you help? All I really need is your love and support and ask that you respect my right to identify with who it is I really am. My family needs your support too. It means so much to me and to them to know you care, please show you do by sharing this article with your friends and loved ones! It would also be super helpful if could spread the word about as a resource for consumers and corporations on trans related issues.

In closing, remember this: being transgender is about more than gender. It is about identifying with who you want to be—not who others want or expect you to be. If you want to change your life: DO IT!

Big love to all of you. Thank you again for your support. There is so much more to come!



PS: Please remember to call me Natalie (or Nat, or even Natty) if / when you respond or comment. Also, please also use the pronouns she / her and try to avoid declarations like DUDE and bro! If you make a mistake that is fine but just keep trying. You will get it!

* Note - we intentionally keep comments “off” for because of the broad range of readers (from kids to parents to corporate professionals) and encourage you to continue an authentic conversation on your social media networks. You can also reach out to me or the company directly if you want to chat!

The Top 11 Myths About Transgender Identity

Questioning, Gender FluidNatalie Egan

According to a commonly cited study out of UCLA (from 2011), approximately 0.3% of adults in the United States identify as transgender. That’s nearly 1 million people, which is more than the number of people living in the city of Boston!

While this is the most commonly talked about study, it’s ironically not terribly recent; more than likely, this number has increased significantly in the past five years. Thankfully, the National Center for Trans Equality is just finishing the most comprehensive study yet…