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Why Trans Movements In India Must Be Anti-Caste

News + Politics, Community + Allies, Relationships, FamilyGee Imaan Semmalar

By Gee Imaan Semmalar

It is a recent development that the word “transgender” has made its way into common usage in India as an umbrella term to describe various gender-variant identities. Though there are many local terms to refer to trans feminine gender identities—aravani, kinnar, hijra, thirunangai, mangalamukhi and others—the term “transgender” is increasingly being used in state policies as well as by activists. Scholars Susan Stryker and Paisley Currah explain, “Because transgender can be imagined to include all possible variations from an often unstated norm, it risks becoming yet another project of colonization, a kind of Cartesian grid imposed on the globe for making sense of human diversity by measuring it within a Eurocentric frame of reference, against a Eurocentric standard.”

On one hand, globalized activism, NGOs, the classification regimes created by the state for administrative control, and the pressures felt by gender-variant communities to make themselves legible (in order to access state benefits) form the politics that have popularized the term “transgender.”

On the other hand, there is a particular way in which some trans activists rely on Hindu epics to prove that gender variance has always existed—to counter criticisms of homosexuality and gender variance being “western imports.”

Some of the local terms like “aravani” [1], in fact, are derived from Hindu myths. While this is a result of an unfair burden of proof imposed on vulnerable communities, relying on Hindu myths to affirm our identities gives rise to another danger—of a regressive kind of trans identity politics that does not take into account the brutality of the caste system that finds its origin and sanction in the same Hindu religion.

Caste is a system of vertical social stratification based on exclusion and violence, and intrinsically linked to Hinduism and its notions of purity and pollution. According to it, caste is transmitted intergenerationally, and occupations and social status are fixed based on caste. For the caste system to perpetuate itself, people are required to marry only endogamously (within one’s caste). Similar to the anti-miscegenation laws that were practised in the U.S. until the Supreme Court declared them unconstitutional in 1967, the caste system even today enacts a stringent punishment on those who defy the rules of endogamy.

Many inter-caste couples who defy the rules of caste endogamy have been and continue to be expelled from families, made to flee, and often, brutally murdered.

Anti-caste revolutionary and leader, Dr B.R Ambedkar, historically places the system of sati, child marriage and compulsory widowhood as mechanisms to maintain caste endogamy. According to his formulation, when a woman and a man marry endogamously, and one dies before the other, it creates the problem of the surplus man / surplus woman. Now, after the death of the husband, the surplus woman becomes a threat to endogamy and caste morality if she loves or cohabitates with a person of a different caste. So, the practice of sati, in which the woman burns herself on the funeral pyre of the husband, was created. To prevent the husband from outliving the wife (which would result in the “problem” of the surplus man), compulsory widowhood or marriages of older men to younger women/girls was promoted. Many inter-caste couples who defy the rules of caste endogamy have been and continue to be expelled from families, made to flee, and often, brutally murdered.

I strongly believe that our movements for gender justice compulsorily have to be anti-caste. Apart from the fact that anyone with a sense of justice and equality should do everything to destroy the caste system, there are various ways in which the violence faced by trans communities are rooted in the caste system.

It is a fact that many trans women across castes are disowned by their families, or leave their homes due to violence and join trans/hijra families, which work in a matrilineal (from the mother) system. The 1881 imperial census classified the hijras in Berar, under the title “hijada” and included them under the category of a “Mendicant and Vagrant Caste” whereas in Bombay, they were listed as a caste of dancers and musical instrument players. In Central Provinces, the hijras were included under the caste category of singers and dancers at birth and marriage feasts; beggars.

Whether it is British colonial records, media, court judgments, Hindu myths, modern day cinema, academic writings or social movements, the trans person is a figure who is hyper sexualized, overdetermined by gender characteristics/expression who is engaged in immoral activities and who is to be relegated to the peripheries: the perpetual “other” against whom public decency and caste morality could be constructed, reinforced and perpetuated.

I grew up hearing my relatives say with pride about me, “You know, she can do anything a boy does and at most times, even better.”

Most narratives of family violence are rooted in the shame that families feel when their kids are trans. Shame and respectability in the Indian context are entirely linked with caste. I have often wondered why most trans men across caste stay with their families longer than trans women. The reasons could be the difficulties in establishing financial independence, the increased control and anxiety over our sexual safety and choices and the fact that masculinity as a trait is more revered than femininity, which is generally seen as a weakness when expressed by a person of any gender. So as a kid, I grew up hearing my relatives say with pride about me, “You know, she can do anything a boy does and at most times, even better.” Many years later, I have wondered whether they would have taken pride if I had been raised as a boy and expressed femininity.

There are many exclusions that trans people face in health care, education, employment and more, all of which which are compounded by factors of caste, class and ability. In the third world, apart from government hospitals lacking trans-specific health care services, privatisation of health care makes the cost exorbitant and the culpability under medical negligence laws minimal. Since trans people constitute a group that is neither numerically large nor in possession of much buying power, very minimal funds are allotted to trans-specific medical research. This results in poor knowledge about trans health care even among medical professionals. It is common knowledge that historically until now, a significantly smaller amount is spent on cis women's health and research than on that of cis men. Thus, compared to cis people, hardly any money or attention is given to trans people; our lives don't seem to matter to governments or medical institutions

What is the most accessible trans surgery globally? Breast augmentation. Why? Because, in a hetero-pornographic sexual division, cis men want cis women to have . Tbigger breasts. And so, a small number of trans women are able to access a surgical intervention designed for maximising the pleasure of  cis men and reclaim it to affirm their own gender identity.

Most trans women in India either beg or do sex work for a living. This could be because most of them are rendered homeless at a young age and drop out of schools. The possibility of continuing education within the hijra family is minimal due to financial and social reasons. Add to that the fact that most cis people are prejudiced. They fear or mock trans women (this is a common representation of trans women in most regional and national cinema) and are not willing to employ them.

As my sister Living Smile Vidya says, “Begging and sex work have become almost like fixed caste occupations for trans women in India.” The only other jobs are provided by NGOs which depend on HIV funding and retain feudal power structures of having cis, dominant caste people at the decision-making level in high salaried posts with trans women from lower caste backgrounds working in low-paid positions as condom distributors or community mobilisers. Having said that, the fact that NGOs provide a semblance of dignity in employment where a trans woman can work in an office rather than face public and police harassment doing street-based labour cannot be denied.

 In November 2014, 53 trans women were rounded up by the police in Bangalore city under the Karnataka Prohibition of Beggary Act, 1975. Trans women who were in any public place were rounded up regardless of whether they were begging or not and forcibly taken to an infamous rehabilitation home called Beggar's colony. Just as certain tribes were deemed criminal in the British colonial period, the entire trans community is targeted and criminalised under various laws like the one mentioned before, the Karnataka Police Act 36 (A), the Immoral Trafficking Prevention Act (which in practise, criminalises all women in sex trade and not just traffickers) the public indecency and public nuisance provisions etc. Trans women are seen as a “polluting” presence along with other marginalised communities that do street vending and other street-based  labour. Public indecency and the notion of immorality are concepts  intrinsically linked to caste patriarchy.

Trans communities have a familial system in which sisterhood across caste is possible and often practiced.

The rejection of endogamous reproductive function by trans people means an abdication of the reproduction of caste relations and labour force making us lesser citizens of the Brahmin empire/Indian nation state. I opened my heart and mind to the possibilities of creating families outside of heteropatriarchy and caste endogamy after I started living among trans communities. Trans communities have a familial system in which sisterhood across caste is possible and often practised. There are of course, caste practices and differences among trans communities, however the collective experience of being disowned by families, structural exclusions in employment, education and housing create at the very minimum, the possibility of a strong sense of belonging and “consciousness of kind”. I have seen trans women raise orphaned babies into strong, beautiful people. My most beloved trans brother was raised by his trans mother. I am inspired by so many such stories of resilience, courage, love and beauty. On the most depressing days I just think about how privileged I am, and how much harder I need to fight to destroy systems that oppress me and systems that benefit me

Nina Simone when asked in an interview about what freedom meant to her said, “lack of fear.” I believe we all need to fight until every single one of us can say, “I have no fear. This is what freedom feels like.”

 

[1] In the Mahabharata it was prophesied that the Pandavas would win the battle of Kurukshetra only if they sacrificed a ‘perfect’ male from among themselves. Aravan, the virgin son of Pandava prince Arjuna, offered himself up for sacrifice. But he had a request: that he be allowed to spend one night as a married man. No king was willing to give his daughter in marriage only to have her widowed the next day, so finally, Lord Krishna assumed female form and married Aravan, and after a night of sexual bliss, Aravan was beheaded. Some trans women in Tamil Nadu consider themselves to be the female form of Krishna and perform widowhood as Aravanis at the Koovagam festival conducted every year.

 

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Gee Imaan Semmalar is a 29 year old writer, trans activist and theatre artist from India. He co-founded Panmai theatre along with Living Smile Vidya and Angel Glady in 2014 and toured extensively in India and internationally with their debut production Colour of Trans 2.0. He works voluntarily as a working group member of Sampoorna, the largest network for trans* and intersex Indians globally. He scripted, directed and acted in Kalvettukal (Sculptures, 2012) on Trans men in South India. Recently, he co-directed and acted in a stop motion animation film, "Won't the Real Transformers Please Stand up?” He can be reached at gee.ameena@gmail.com

 


Sex, Gender, Sexuality + Beyond: An Introduction

Questioning, Male-To-Female, Female-To-Male, Gender Fluid, In Transition, Non-Conforming, Family, Community + Allies, SocialKC Clements

The past few years have seen an exponential rise in the visibility of transgender people, particularly in popular media. Many such representations have done the work of showing transgender people in a positive (or at least neutral) light, taking down some of the stereotypes about us that have prevailed for decades.


#NotTransEnough

Stories, Coming Out, Female-To-Male, Family, For Kids + TeenagersKonner Jebb
Image by Kajdi Szabolcs

Image by Kajdi Szabolcs

By Konner Jebb

Most people in the trans community have heard of the idea of #nottransenough, but we all likely have our own definitions of what it means to us. This is because one trans person’s experience is rarely the same as another’s. While we may share transgender identity, it’s not as though each of us identifies with the standard, “x-gender trapped in a y-gender body,” knowing our true self from a young age and being able to recognize that. We’re also not all white, straight, and able-bodied. Being trans may push up against normative cis media in and of itself, but it’s not as though there is a homogenous and single thing that transgender identity is, or means.

And yet this same, singular story told of us in the media and even by doctors promotes another idea that there is only one way of being transgender. In some places, doctors still assess transgender and questioning patients as to whether they are “trans enough” to go on hormones or other transition necessities that require medical attention. If they are not “trans enough” for the doctor, they can be denied access to any of these transition needs. This is called gatekeeping.

They’ve been ignoring my transness in hopes that it will just fade away.

Gatekeeping is now not just a problem when facing doctors, but within our own community. Fights about trans people not experiencing enough dysphoria to be trans, not presenting feminine enough to be trans, or masculine enough to be trans, non-binary enough to be trans; the list goes on. That has led many to worry that if their own diverse transgender experiences are valid.

I think and worry about this a lot with my own unique transgender experience. Despite the transgender community’s support of trans siblings with families who are not accepting, it often seems like the voices most loudly heard are the ones of those who were accepted or are now accepted. Those of us who haven’t been accepted are less visible. Being transgender in a family that doesn’t accept you comes with a lot of different emotions and experiences, all of which have made me feel more alone, more isolated. Quite frankly, I often get the sense I’m made to feel #nottransenough.

I experience more doubt about my trans identity than is #transenough. I’ve effectively been told by my parents time and time again that they know me better than I know myself. Therefore, they imply, how can I possibly be transgender? Since they aren’t able to see my identity, why and how should I be able to be so sure about it? They refuse to use my pronouns and use my birth name. They don’t even bat an eye when my friends use “Konner” or “he” around them. They’ve been ignoring my transness in hopes that it will just fade away. (It’s been five years—and guess what? I’m still trans!) I feel invisible at my old home, and often confused more than anything else. Confusion because, after all, these people are still my parents, right? I’m tempted to rationalize their behavior—they must just be looking out for my best interests. And that kind of thinking sends me into a spiral of doubt: how can my parents possibly be wrong? I know I am transgender. But what if they’re right?

My life is trudging ahead of me and I’m not there to enjoy it. I’m always paranoid. My brain hasn’t slept in five years: Can I trust what I’m feeling?

From there, more negativity arises. I feel guilty. I used to love getting gendered correctly, marching proudly into the men’s department, placing “Konner” in the heading of all my college papers, until over time it began to feel like betrayal. Gender dysphoria feels wrong. Yet gender euphoria feels worse. If my parents knew how being transgender made me feel, it would disappoint them. I fight them every day. Sometimes I feel I’ve developed a severe case of internalized transphobia because I’ve internalized my parents’ own transphobia.

I describe this lack of acceptance as a grey area because I often feel stuck. My life is trudging ahead of me and I’m not there to enjoy it. I’m always paranoid. My brain hasn’t slept in five years: Can I trust what I’m feeling? I need to go on T, but what if they’re right and I am making a mistake? Could I be financially and emotionally stable if I transitioned without their permission? Am I ruining my life? The answer is this: now I am 23, living on my own and in graduate school. I’m in a place where they can’t take my undergraduate degree away from me if I went on T, or my ability to support myself if I went on T, nor would I be homeless if I went on T and yet, I still worry. I deeply, sincerely, and painfully know transitioning is the absolute right choice for me. It’s just getting the courage to accept that permission to be myself does not have to be granted, and that parents don’t always know what’s best for you.

What’s most harmful about a parent’s lack of acceptance of their transgender child are the thoughts that hold us back. As a community, I wish we would engage with these experiences more and have a discussion on how we can help anyone else who feels like this. More importantly, I want to hear the voices of trans people who come from unaccepting backgrounds so that we can feel #transenough, too.

 

 

Konner Jebb is currently receiving his MFA with hopes of using his poetry and other writings to become an activist for the transgender and LGBT community as a whole. He plans on sharing his transition and experiences on YouTube, blogs and articles so he can contribute to the same community that helped him. For now, you can follow @trainersarecoolest on Instagram and kawnerwithak on Tumblr.


6 Podcasts To Listen To This Thanksgiving Instead Of Your Racist Uncle

News + Politics, Home and Community, Home + Community, FamilyJohanna Campbell Case

Are you pretty sure that your in-laws, siblings, or parents will discuss how grateful they are to be a part of “Making America Great Again” this Turkey Day?

Is your excitement around eating your grandmother's sweet potato pie being overshadowed by the knowledge that it will be made by a person who believes Black Lives Matter is a terrorist group?


Sleep Away: An Interview With Nick Teich, CEO & Founder Of Camp Aranu’tiq For Trans And Gender Variant Youth

Stories, Female-To-Male, Male-To-Female, News + Politics, Family, For Kids + Teenagers, Social, Allies + VolunteeringCharlotte Lieberman

Within mainstream media, childhood and adolescence are typically depicted as “magical.” As a kid, I was probably my most anxious, self-doubting and socially-neurotic self. I felt estranged from my body, and mistrusting of my friendships. And all of this was as a cisgender, white, pretty privileged kid. What I mean to say is this: growing up is—or can be—hard.


"How Do You Know I'm a Boy?": A Mother On Her Child’s Gender Quest

Stories, Coming Out, Male-To-Female, Family, For Kids + Teenagers, Community + Allies, Work + SchoolJulie Tarney

Twenty-four years ago, in 1992, my son, Harry, told me, “Inside my head I’m a girl.” He was two years old. I had no idea what that meant. I felt disoriented even trying to process it. The internet was no help, because there was no internet. Books didn’t exist on how to raise children who didn’t fit neatly inside a box that was either pink or blue. And terms like transgendergender nonconforming, and gender fluid were rare or nonexistent.


What to Expect from Sex (and Intimacy)

Female-To-Male, Male-To-Female, FamilyDr. Michele Angello

For most people, sex and intimacy are important aspects of life. As a transgender person embarks on a medical transition, these concepts can appear scary and maybe even impossible to deal with. Some trans-women, previously accustomed to having a testosterone-driven sex life, have to find new ways to get turned on since the estrogen and anti-androgen (Spironolactone) diminish the simplicity of becoming aroused or maintaining an erection prior to surgery. Trans-guys are usually surprised by the drastic increase in arousal with the introduction of testosterone. Regardless of whether or not hormones are involved, feeling an intimate connection is much more complicated when you’re trans!

Everyone’s journey will be different and unique, but one thing I like to do with my clients—especially those who are just beginning their journey—is to call out a few of the common challenges. This can help people feel like they have a roadmap for some questions and feelings to expect. From there, I hope to offer words of wisdom that may help the transition in this definitionally vulnerable area of life feel a little less scary…

1. Getting used to a new body takes time, so be patient.

Recognize your impatience, frustration, or whatever emotions come up around the notion of your transition as a process. Put simply, it will get easier. I have noticed that much of my clients’ discomfort when it comes to sex and intimacy in particular comes from the expectation that things will feel “normal” right away now that they are being honest about their self-expression. In reality, though, I often liken transitioning to puberty…and remember how impetuous and awkward we all felt then?

Adolescents experiencing their own bodies as sexual are usually shocked, frightened or even intrigued by the ways in which their bodies respond to fantasy or actual sexual intimacy. They don’t necessarily know what is going to feel good to them. Eventually, they figure it out and even if it’s less than ideal, it serves a sexual purpose. That’s what makes intimacy so complicated when an adult transitions. Most people, regardless of the level of gender dysphoria, find creative ways (through fantasy, creative partnering or other means) to get their sexual needs met as adults. When you find yourself with a new body, one that functions very differently from the one you’refamiliar with, it’s like beginning puberty all over again. And, getting used to these new sensations is just the beginning.

2. Discussing a new body/bodily sensation with a current or prospective partner can be intense, and that’s OK.

Even though we’re sexually saturated as a culture, this level of vulnerability is unique. If the person who is transitioning is already in a relationship, it can feel challenging to the non-transitioning partner to request that things be done differently. If they are coming out to a new sexual partner, it’s a different, but often equally awkward conversation. For the latter, the transitioning person will end up revealing personal matters that those of us who are cisgender never have to talk about. For example, a pre-operative person’s partner will likely want to know if the partner’s turned on by genital stimulation or if that area is to be avoided. Lots of trans folks come up with creative ways to get turned on that have nothing to do with genitals.

3. “Role play” often takes on a new meaning. Explore!

Some people in the midst of transition also enjoy role-playing to “try on” their new gender role and identity. This can be an incredibly fun, creative and empowering way for people to explore what kinds of dynamics they find appealing now that they are in a different place with regard to their gender expression. Note that this also warrants a conversation with regard to how much to divulge and when to do so—so establishing norms about communication at the beginning of sexual play may be a good idea.

Unfortunately, I have found that many people who are transitioning believe that they should just appreciate anyone who wants to be sexual with them. I often say that the dating pool shrinks when you’re trans, but the good news is, you’re left with the keepers. People who are willing to engage you in an honest conversation about intimacy and see you for your authentic self are the ones we all should be looking for!


Consider These Tips Before Coming Out To Your Kids

Relationships, FamilyDr. Michele Angello
Illustration by Lolo Camille

Illustration by Lolo Camille

Coming out as transgender at any stage of life has its challenges. Most people I work with have kept this aspect of their identity under wraps for months, years—even decades. Many try to do as much as they can to present themselves as leading a “normal” life so that others will never catch wind of the fact that they’re wrestling with issues related to gender identity deep down. And that wrestling match gets brutal at times.

In my experience working with transgender individuals, coming out to one’s children can be one of the scariest obstacles to face. As with most situations in which parents must show unprecedented levels of vulnerability to their children, transgender parents often worry about how the personal information they share with their children will impact their well-being. Will their child stop loving them?  Will their child be emotionally scarred?  Will they be stopped from having a relationship with their child? Will my transition confuse themselves about their own identity or cause them to be transgender?

Understandably, most kids assume that if they know their father as “dad” and their mother as “mom,” these identities will remain permanent. Memories will fade, new memories must be made But the good news is that children are incredibly adaptable, and their primary concern is to be assured that their parents love them unconditionally.

So, no: there isn’t a sure-fire way to ensure that your children won’t have a difficult time when you have the talk. But there are five things to keep in mind that can make that talk, and the whole process, slightly easier on everyone:

1. Their age is important.

At different periods of development, we interpret and understand information based on experience, education and various other psychological factors. For example, if your child is under 10 years old (maturity varies with each child) they will probably understand something as simple as, “I was born with a boy’s body, but a girl’s brain and I’m going to change my outside to match my inside.” They will likely trust that whatever mom and dad say is “right” actually is right, and will go with it.

Sure, there will be a few questions. But I like to say that in most cases, kids haven’t been tainted by our cynical society yet.

If your child is a teenager, however, they will probably push back with a little more force—and will probably ask the question, “Why are you doing this to me?” This period of time is when most kids experience a concept called “adolescent egocentrism”—the feeling that the world revolves around them. They are constantly comparing how they are like and unlike other people, and generally want to just fit in. If mom says she’s a man and will soon begin masculinizing, it can be perceived as embarrassing for teens because most moms don’t look masculine.

2. You can play a role in their emotional resilience.

Keep in mind that all kids want to know that they are loved, that limits will be set to keep them safe, that resources will be provided when needed, that they are respected by caregivers, that they will be OK even if they are experiencing a difficult situation, and that it is acceptable for them to express fears or concerns when they need to.

Obviously, most children don’t explicitly articulate any of these things. But deep down, these gestures of parental love are essential, and it’s important to make sure they are considered in order to raise and support a child who can be resilient—who can cultivate an ability to work through difficult, confusing and painful circumstances.

3. Timing matters.

Because this is usually new information for your child to process, it’s vital to allow them time to ask questions, be confused, get angry and approach you for support. It can be grueling because you are playing a dual-role (which parents often do, but this is exceptional): you’re sharing tough information and making yourself very vulnerable, while simultaneously trying to make sure to take care of your child’s needs after hearing the information.

As strange as it sounds, this is a situation in which it really can’t be about you! Give them the weekend to be confused. Don’t do things like tell them at Thanksgiving dinner. Make sure there is an adult in your and your child’s life (other than you) that understands that they’ll likely need support. Then be certain that your child is comfortable with and has access to that person. Finally, if there is another parent involved, do your best to show a united front. Your kids will often look to the cisgender parent for guidance, and to serve as a barometer for their own feelings.

4. Offering diverse forms of support is key.

As mentioned above, some kids get angry when presented with this probably shocking information. Allow whatever emotions they are feeling to come to the surface, and try to avoid minimizing (e.g. reassuring them that “Nothing is going to change.”). Similarly, try to avoid intellectualizing the feelings by giving them a biology lesson. Remember how long it took YOU to accept this about yourself—and give your kids a grace period.

If you’ve done too good of a job “hiding” your identity, your child will be even more shocked with the news, and may wonder if there is anything else about their relationship with you that is going to change. They may also ask whether this will happen to them. If your child is of school age, enlist support at school. It’s also a great idea to develop a support network and find other transgender parents whose kids might be farther along than yours are. The Internet is a good place to find these resources.

5. Accepting the challenges will help both you and your children adjust.

Expecting everything to feel OK (or “the same”) immediately is bound to exacerbate any discomfort that you are feeling about coming out to your kids, and this experience at large. Being realistic, and acknowledging the importance of patience, is bound to make your kid feel more seen and heard, and for you to feel less pressure to “be normal.”

Recognizing the power of accepting your situation’s difficult aspects is incredibly liberating. Owning the challenges, whatever they are, will help give you more space for everyone to process complex emotions and thoughts, and to develop resilience in the process.